I used to feel ashamed for being embarrassed about being a witness. After all I was supposed to be proud of the fact and let everyone know and preach at every opportunity, school, work, standing at a bus stop etc. When in reality I would shy away from it.
I hated going on ministry especially when people were nasty and I couldn't answer questions like "how is Michael the archangel Jesus"? And what would have happened if we hadn't gone to war, if everyone were pacifists we would have been taken over by Germany. Would you let your child die because you wouldn't let them have a blood transfusion? So embarrassed trying to explain that one. So embarrassed when I started a new job and had to to tell everyone I was a witness. It usually came up when someone was collecting money for someone's birthday and I had to tell them I couldn't because ........ and then explain why we didn't. I always felt that was a stupid explanation, the beheadings and most of them didn't know or care about it being pagan!
I remember once explaining to a workmate about why we didn't celebrate Christmas. Went through the whole thing, saturnalia etc, thought I had explained it well. Someone else asked that girl why I didn't do it, she said to her "something to do with the Romans"! Thought that was funny.
Many other embarrassing moments over the years, too many to count. I didn't choose this religion my parents chose it for me. My life would have been a lot less embarrassing if they hadn't.
